I get into ruts sometimes, where I just don't want to leave the house. It'll be a GORGEOUS day outside and I know I'll regret not doing something, but I don't and it's awful and I'm not sure why I do it to myself, but sometimes I do. I've had some heavier things weighing on my mind lately and today I kind of came to a decision that I know is right but I wasn't completely satisfied with, I think that was part of it.
Also, I can be really good at making excuses.
But today, at 3:02pm, I decided we were getting out of the house. I owed it to my kids and I owed it to myself. So I quickly showered and got Luke into something that wasn't pajamas and we left the house.
Not five minutes into our drive I couldn't help but notice the magnificent way the sun was piercing through the clouds over head. The rays of light were so defined and powerful and my mind immediately turned to God, the Creator of Heaven and Earth and the ruler of the Universe. It was one of those undeniable moments of truth. I thought about how no matter what clouds of life distract us or block our view, He can always pierce the darkness and bring light again into our souls.
Then I heard the sweetest little voice from the back seat say, "Mommy, do you see that sky? That's how Heavenly Father and Jesus talk to me."
And all I could say was, "me too."
As Jeremy and I were reading scriptures tonight, we read a verse that really summed up the experience for me:
"Behold, God is my salvation; I will trust, and not be afraid; for the Lord JEHOVAH is my strength and my song; he also has become my salvation."
2 Nephi 22:2 (Isaiah 12:2)